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Repost: Romancing the Smoker in Ourselves
I felt the same way once upon a time. I can honestly say that today I have 0 desire or interest in smoking - It happens newbies!
KTQ
Cara
D6813
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Romancing The Smoker In Ourselves ~
From BilliB on 1/30/2004 1:31:40 PM
In reading some of the posts I was reminded of old thoughts that have drifted through my own head....... wanting to be able to be a...Repost: Romancing the Smoker in Ourselves
I felt the same way once upon a time. I can honestly say that today I have 0 desire or interest in smoking - It happens newbies!
KTQ
Cara
D6813
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Romancing The Smoker In Ourselves ~
From BilliB on 1/30/2004 1:31:40 PM
In reading some of the posts I was reminded of old thoughts that have drifted through my own head....... wanting to be able to be a social smoker. The frustration that I had to face at not being able to smoke. The deep emotional connection I had with nicotine. I honestly didn't know if I could live without it. Truth be known, since I was 14, I had smoked. So I was scared to death to even try. Maybe that is why I could not keep a quit. Fear !! I was angry also........ why did I have to have this addiction ?
I even remember getting "down wind" so I could catch a wiff ~ lol My eyes would gaze over to where they keep the cigarettes in the grocery stores. I would check out the price on my brand. I would see that they were "on sale" this week. Oh WOW !!! Just maybe I could have a couple. I loved smoking. WHO said that ? As I think back, I hated smoking. It tasted nasty many times. I was a prisoner, chained with this monkey on my back that dictated my life.
Junkie thinking, every thought like that. We kid no one but ourselves when we allow that addict to start whispering in our ears. Lies, nothing but lies. We are caught in the web....... wanting to smoke, needing to smoke, yet knowing we are playing with poisons. I cannot smoke socially!! Well damn !!! I have finally gotten past that point in my thinking. I am an addict, and can never have another puff unless I want to be right back into the grips of an addiction that will kill me.
So if I can't smoke socially because I am an addict........ I cannot take that first puff. There is no debate here. This is a line in the sand kind of thing we face in life. I can't sugar coat this and pretend that "just maybe" ~ nah, I have to KICK BUTT here. Get serious, get tough, and fight to kill the addiction to nicotine. No games, no excuses. That approach only keeps me in hell.
The picture isn't as pretty as I thought it was.
~~ Billi
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